I am a girl who takes things to heart. Though I may be so soft and lighthearted, I tend to realize it does me more harm than good. I met this friend a while ago, giving me constructive criticism on my voice. Online friend might I say, and they told me, "I like your voice." I said "Thanks, wow, no one has told me that!" and they said, "Woah...I didn't say it was the best, but it's ok." and I'm like, "Ok then, but thanks!" I keep myself smiling through this constant rating that strangers give me. I was not arrogant a day in my life, though the criticism keeps hitting at me like hail on a car windshield. It has come a daily part of my life that I have begun to accept it. I have sat there for over 18 years and taken this amount of criticism that I have forgot who I am. My friend is right, maybe my voice isn't the best, but I can always improve on that. You see, I cannot change my voice, but I can change in ways I choose to ...
I don't know how to describe this phase I am in. I feel as if I need to be in monster mode and attack anyone that gets in my way. Of course, that's not civil, but why should I be civil when people have treated me with abuse all my life? From verbal, physical and mental abuse, I have fought many battles within and held things inside. I realize people aren't going to love me anytime soon so in the meantime why not love myself and try to be there for me instead? The middle school I went to was such a nightmare, that I had to basically cry and beg to my parents every day to not let me go there. They still made me go anyway, because education is important in our family and for the life that is ahead. I'm 18 now, looking back and wish I enjoyed every second of middle school because besides the kids giving me a hard time, I was the main bully and bargain in the way. I was such a meanie to myself when I already faced that treatment for so many others. I ...